
Maybe it’s just my brain firing on old pathways I haven’t successfully rewired yet. Maybe it’s the routine of the past, and a desire for a return to turbulence out of the current tranquil waters I swim in now. Realizing that maybe that thought is occurring from a lack of connection with others my own loneliness gutting through my belly causing such feelings of emptiness. Some days I still want to drink, and instead of simply running with the thought and mindlessly allowing for it to occur I now challenge it. So Instead of drowning in past failures I am actively learning from them. Each an anchor preventing one another from reaching the shore ahead. That two boats letting in water don’t fix each other’s holes- and in the end it just leads to two people drowning even quicker. That looking outside for validation only ruins yourself and the other soul’s ability for connection, and ultimate growth. Which I exemplified by not pursuing a relationship with a truly beautiful girl because you realize lust is not a foundation you build relationships on. And most importantly it meant sacrificing immediate happiness and comfort to experience the discomfort of growth. And it meant learning past failures are key for they unlock the skills for future joy. It meant looking in the mirror and deciding I was not going to let my old ways of thought bury my future happiness. It’s realizing I feared failure more than I desired success. It meant embracing the fact I hadn’t truly been pushing myself for being stagnant is oh so comfortable. It means having to be truly insightful, and honest of my past behaviors- especially the selfish ones that came from fear. So in the past few weeks I have been really diligently trying to be mindful so I don’t return to my past harmful ways of thought. An invented past can never be used it cracks and crumbles under the pressures of life like clay in a season of drought.”
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So today I reflected on one of his quotes, “To accept one’s past-one’s history-is not the same thing as drowning in it it is learning how to use it. Von Le Villejuif Underground bis Octo OctaĪußerdem Musik von The Shamen, Dendemann und Swans.Yesterday was James Baldwin’s birthday- an author whose words always leave me in awe. Daniel Carter, Tobias Wilner, Djibril Toure & Federico Ughi – Canal Street.Cass McCombs – I Followed The River South To What.Black Loops, Nikoss & Seven Davis Jr – Good Things.Wicca Phase Springs Eternal – Just One Thing.Die Goldenen Zitronen – Nützliche Katastrophen.Heaven 17 – (We Don’t Need That) Fascist Groove.LCD Soundsystem – I Want Your Love (Electric Lady Sessions).LCD Soundsystem – Home (Electric Lady Sessions).International Teachers Of Pop – The Ballad Of Remedy Nilsson.Harmonious Thelonious – Polyrhythmic Monster.Jayda G – Stanley’s Get Down (No Parking On The DF).Andre Williams – Lapdance (Jim Waters & Scott Benzel Remix) Khidja – Don’t Feed The Animals (Hiding In Your Room).Eli & Fur – Coming Back (Maya Jane Coles Remix).White Denim – Small Talk (Feeling Control).Los Retros – Someone To Spend Time With.Shana Cleveland – Night Of The Warm Moon.King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard – Fishing For Fishes.Kenny Rogers And The First Edition – Ruby, Don’t Take Your Love To Town.Franz Matthews & Local Suicide – Meditation.Gentle Giant – The Boys In The Band (Edit).

Guilty Simpson – Pull (Darkhouse Family Remix)
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